Saturday, February 9, 2008

life isnt about finding yourself, its about creating yourself

I thought about the quote which is the title to this entry.
It made me realize even more the complexity, and dis-functionality of this life.


   When you're told in life you will find who you are, people say that because they're scared to admit to themselves who they are. When you stand in front of a mirror and stare yourself down, you know who you are, the problem is accepting or admitting to who and what you are. [EXAMPLE]Pedophiles aren't going through some phase of life and trying to find themselves. They're sick individuals who know that what they do is perversely and morally incorrect. Cheers to them, because they know who they are. NO! I am not encouraging or supporting what they are. Just a point to explain that people avoid to show or be who they really are in fear of being rejected or pushed away.

   Naturally (or at least in my head) people liked to be liked. However sometimes because the way a certain person is, or better yet WHO a certain individual is, may not be something flattering to another imperfect reasoning mind. There comes in to play the saying about finding yourself.

   Finding yourself to me means, be someone you're not to impress other people. Change what you love about yourself and who you are to make others happy. Of course, if someone is ill tempered, or otherwise, that person might want to detract away from that characteristic. Doesn't necessarily mean they are that way forever. Neither does it mean trying to mold that or erase that characteristic changing who they are. We know as humans there are certain things that trigger the mind and trigger senses. Like sharks, they aren't born to kill humans or hunt us down. However when they smell blood or something looks apparent as to what they prey on, their mind is triggered and they attack. Same thing as us. We can be amazing people, generous, loving, caring, compassionate. But when certain things trigger our emotions or feelings, doesn't mean that we aren't going to be upset, angry, depressed, etc. People judge to often that when someone is in a bad mood, thats how they always are, and you cant change that.
What about when they're in a good mood?

   I guess what I'm trying to say is that, most of us know who we are, and at times we're afraid to show it because we feel other people might not accept that. In a sense we have to create ourselves to others. My case, I do have sometimes a bad temper, but showing that all the time isn't something positive, nor do i excuse that behavior, it's what I am. However I can control in time those emotions. Maybe this only makes sense to me. But whatever, this is how I'm feeling right now, and I thought I'd share it.

   I guess what triggered this thought, was hearing something at work. Someone told someone that in life, most of our time is spent finding out who we are. In my head, I was like, no its not, I know who I am, half of life is accepting who we are and hoping our peers will accept it whenever we're ready to show who we really are. Or we can pretend to be something we're not, and going home each night and looking in the mirror, not able to come to peace with ourselves.


Got it?


Nahhh


alright I'm gonna shower



peace!

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