It's ok by me

So I went hay wire and deleted all my old posts in a fit of anger and decided to start writing here again.

How have things been? They've been pretty good, but you know if we sit and think about it, everything else around us is not as good....not personally, but more like in the sense of whats going in this enormous habitat we call earth. People dying, natural disasters, crisis, and so many more things....but in the end like Ingrid Michaelson says in one of her songs...."all we can do is keep breathing". We might want to change the world, but I always thought like this, if we can't help ourselves how are we supposed to help the world. "Be the change you want to be", but half our lives are trying to define who we are as people, and maybe thats why the world is the way it is. We are trying to be that change, but its so inconsistent that it turns into chaos.
It's an amazing thing though; life that is. It's something that so many take for granted, and because of our intrinsic inherited imperfection, we never stop to really appreciate it. Granted its hard in the daily routine we or role we play. Depending on your lifestyle and your occupation, that dictates your life..as much as we hate to acknowledge it, but its true. We have to prepare for work, school, or the position in life we're filling. But when you are able to stop and take a look around, whether it be positive or negative surroundings, its a good feeling..most of the time it is. You cherish the small moments that make you feel at that moment that whatever you've done up until that point, whatever hardships you've been through, or achievements, its all worth it. You're able to truly enjoy life, or as much as our imperfect minds let us enjoy. Why is it though, the good moments seem to vanish, and only surface from time to time, and the trials we've gone through that have weighed down on us for so long last an eternity, or hover around like that nauseating smell of popcorn and butter in a theater? Because if you think about it, people say, "whatever doesn't kill you only makes you stronger." So what about good things that happen, that also molds us into the people we are today..doesn't that count too? People say that when we go through something hard and we overcome it, we are molded into better people because we got through it...so whats to say about when something good happens and people automatically write it off as good luck, or chance. Or maybe thats just how I see things?

As for me though, life's gears are moving right now, and I can't really tell what the future will bring, but I have a good guess, and hopefully it turns out the way I envision it. As for now, I'll take it a day at a time, and try at least once or more times a day to stop and think of something good that happened that day or look back at a recent memory that made me smile or feel good....Positive reinforcement I guess....it seems to be working, so I'll let you know how that goes. Until then, keep your chin up.

Signing out-